These thoughts, actions, obsessions and indulgences are enough for you to know that theres an intense war in your mind where you try and decide what parts of you come out victorious. Its really intense stuff, you may feel depressed, or constantly anxious, you probably start drinking more, or gearing your thoughts towards something else. Its intense in the mind, but physically, its subtle enough to where no one really notices. This all sounds like. A giant shitshow doesn’t it? Of course it does! I mean, how can you have all these thoughts and emotions while managing to maintain some semblance of a normal work/ life balance.
Maybe this explains why so many young people are cynical or simply just burnt out. The issue is, no one is talking about all of this. We’ve ,mastered the art of being very private ( which isn’t a bad thing in moderation), and putting up a slideshow of highlights so distract people from seeing the real us. Maybe we are afraid, that if people see this internal battle we are facing, then we all of a sudden, seem less than capable of being a societally functional human. On the other hand, maybe its our way of dissociation from what is actually happening to us. Either way, it ends up being a total mess. Priorities get mixed up, and then the vicious cycle of hurt is projected. You know the saying, “hurt people, hurt people’? Yeah, that. Is. A . Real. Thing.
Im guilty of it, you’re guilty of it, we all are.